ALL IN ALL
…I personally applaud causion that you take on matters of Radha Krishna lila ……….thats the right thing to do ….

In conclusion..Srila Prabhupada and
All our acaryas advise extreme caution re Radha Krishna nitya lila esoteric meditation

The topics are never discussed in public .

And extremely rarely amongst devotees…and even then , devotees do not speak of their own attraction, except to clarify certain understandings they may have the good fortune to have insight to and only to persons who have such insights …having heard from and served a pure devotee or read from bone fide param para acaryas…and who are recognised and pure in devotional service..

And thus ….when one has dedicated his life in service and has been strictly following for , as Srila Bhaktisiddanta Goswami Maharaja says , for 30 years or more with developments of spiritual character and service attitudes with humility towards all persons, one can further develop , if he so desires and has the benediction of greed …..and it should come , irresistibly within, …… says Srila Sridhar Swami , his or her attraction for any of the services of the residents of Vrndavana……and the wide variations of many different types of sakhaya rasa .Madhurya rasa … mixed with variations of service attitudes, some more intimate, some less so, and some more at a distance .

But also , of course, knowledge and appreciation for all Krishnas activities remain .in Mathura, Dwarka. And His actions in Kuruksetra as well as His incarnations and expansions in Vaikuntha…..

In Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhus line , which the materialistic prakrita bhaktas know nothing about , … ( ie..The Manjari bhava .. (pranaya .).oneness with Radharani in service to Her ) ,is discussed , because She is the most expert at pleasing Krishna…
This is Gaudia Vaisnavism. ….these Manjaris, who are intimate servants of Radharani , or Her friends, are different than the Shakis …..who all have direct union with Krishna. ..the Manjaris desire only Radha Dasyam

We should never compare sincere followers of Gaudia Vaisnavas with proven characters and service history to perverse materialistic so-called devotees of Krishna.

See the following…and
Note the difference….from Prabhupada.

The class of men known as prākṛta-sahajiyās, who consider the transcendental pastimes of Lord Kṛṣṇa something like the behavior between a man and a woman in the material field, artificially think that hearing the rāsa-līlā will help them by diminishing the lusty desires of their diseased hearts.

THE DIFFERENCE….

(But because they DO NOT follow the regulative principles but instead violate even ORDINARY MORALS, their contemplation of rāsa-līlā is a futile attempt, which sometimes results in their imitating the dealings of the gopīs and Lord Kṛṣṇa.)…

Because the Bhagavatam is ever expanding , the particular realisations of our Great Acaryas are recorded in trancendental literature. Prabhupada has himself commented on this unlimited ocean , and if he were still performing his Lila here , he would continue to expand the ocean of unlimited bliss .
Actually, one does not require unlimited literature because one drop can inundate the whole world…
But still Mahāprabhu desires are such that complete inundation of the universe is to take place .

A.C.Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupāda words as follows..

So one has to follow. The same example, try to understand, that a perfect, expert technologist or technician or mechanic is working, and somebody is working under his instruction. So this somebody, because he is strictly working under the instruction of the expert, he’s also expert. He may not be cent per cent expert, but his work is expert. Is that clear? Because he is working under the expert. Do you follow?

So if you follow pure devotee, then you are also pure devotee. It may not be one is cent per cent pure, because we are trying to raise ourself from the conditional life. But if we strictly follow the pure devotee, then we are also pure devotee. So far we do, that is pure.

So pure devotee does not mean one has to become immediately cent per cent pure. But if he sticks to the principle that “We’ll follow a pure devotee,” then his actions are… He is as good as a pure devotee. That is a… It is not I am explaining in my own way; it is the explanation of Bhāgavata. Mahājano yena gataḥ sa panthāḥ [Cc. Madhya 17.186].